So empty

Won't you fill me?

Shiny liquid pearls across my chest

Aaaah, you missed

To Write A Song For you

To Write A Song For You

The way I see it, a woman has two choices with you

She can be the one you're cheating with

Or the one you're cheating on

Neither sounds too appealing so let's just

Keep on being friends who want eachother bad

You asked me to put a pen to paper

To make some pretty words for you

But you know it's not that simple

I can't conjure up that kind of magic

Just because you want me to

I've been broken long enough to hide behind the pain

Look at me, I'm the happy, well-adjusted one

With an edge, you say, well I suppose but

No one's ever going to get inside again

I need a broken heart and ruined dreams

So I can catch the mood but

You're my friend and not my lover

You'll never understand

The pain I crave to write the words you want

You do for me and comfort me.

You always help me through

I do the same for you when you need me to

I'll give you pretty, shallow words

And my love for all your life

But not my body, not my soul,

Not poetry on demand

So wait awhile, I'll fall in love and then

I'll cry and hurt and feel the pain

The words will flow like rivers once again

Waiting Here

You can only hurt me if I let you

I don't

Marry one woman or a hundred

It won't change a thing

Did you really believe someone else's flesh

Could take the place of mine?

That someone else's heart

Could make yours beat like mine?

The line between us disappeared a long time ago

I can think you to me whenever I want

Feel what you feel when you touch me

There is no me or you

We are eachother for a little while

And it's so good, so good

Flesh to flesh, it burns and I like it

We stoke each other's fires

Like nobody else ever could

And you can look forever

Or settle for less

Or try to drink us away

So do what you need to do

And when you're finished searching, come on back

I'll be waiting here

With the other half of you

Mister Jones Again

I was driving and inadvertently speed dialed your number
You sounded very happy to hear from me
And it was your birthday, some Freudian slip on my part, I'm sure
We met soon after that and I was so nervous my thighs were shaking

One thing led to another and we were back at it again
Pretending it was love forever this time
Pretending we weren't going to do that thing from before
Knowing we were but nobody wanted to stop just then

"I missed you, missed this, thought I was done with this...." Me

"I missed us, we're going to be together forever this time...." You

Christmas came and I gave you my almost new flat screen television
(All right, I got a bigger one)
You forgot my gift but remembered to take me there and then
I believed you when you said we'd meet the next day
And never heard from you again

That's a lot of work for a television.
Your children must be very proud of you.

I'll Be Your Muse If You'll Be Mine Part II - Unrequited Love

Want it, crave it

Can't have it

Irritation

Frustration

Speculation

Fascination

Inspiration

I'll be your muse

If you'll be mine

Aging Rock Slut

Music soothes the savage beast in me

When there's no savage beast in me

I'm lost inside it

Myself is some place else, reliving, remembering

How perfect it all was

Writing now would be someone else's words

And not my own, plagiarism of the worst kind

Am I me or merely a compilation of my favorite lyrics?

Last time I really looked, I wasn't even here anymore

Didn't know who I was supposed to be

When I look in a mirror, someone else is staring back

Inside me is not that person

Looking out with pity

I only know I appear to be turning into a caricature

Not because I want to

I don't know who belongs here or what she's supposed to do

Maybe I should just dance anyhow, fuck them all

Besides, I never cared before so why should it matter now?

Haiku

At home alone cold water hits my body

My bloodshot eyes fill up with tears

Last trace of you runs down the drain

I haven't been this close to love

In years

I'll Be Your Muse If You'll Be Mine

I don't really want your body

Most everyone's already had it

But I wouldn't mind your heart

And soul

If only for a little while

I promise to give them back when I'm through

And some day if you're very good

Maybe you can borrow mine

Since You Disappeared

Since you disappeared

One salty tear dribbled out of my eye

Trailed down my left cheek

Landed on my blouse and left a dark spot there

I sniffled twice and blew my nose

Vowed not to cry again

I joined Facebook and got eight friends in twenty four hours

Made me feel a little better

Some people don't even know eight other people

Wrote something sad but didn't cry on the paper

Wished you were a better man than you are

And wondered if I'd ever be naked with anyone again

The plumbing backed up

The landlord cursed at me and called me a bad tenant

Then the plumber said the lady upstairs flushed something

Inappropriate down the toilet

It was the first Saturday of the new year

So I went to Craig's List

(Maybe I should get a list, too)

And found some very cool places to be

Far away from your DNA

Narrowed them down to one

Signed a lease

Moving to the Hollywood Hills

Reinventing myself

Once again

I'm going to live on a very hip hill

With an amazing view of the city on one side

Of the hills on the other

But decisions must be made

Shall I sleep in the green room

Or the honey room?

Do I want to awake

To the city or the hills?

Doesn't really matter yet

I can't sleep through the night

Wake up at three AM thinking of you

One day I'm angry

The next day I want you

Just one more time

But this will pass

I'll forget you again

And next time I won't answer the phone